Lent...

Lent really snuck up on me this year...it couldn't be because I think about going to church every Sunday but never actually make it there? I could blame grad school like every other deficit in my life but I am probably to blame well at least myself and grad school..60/40???
My fiance and I had some debates about what to give up this year...he suggested I should give up chocolate which obviously was interpreted as his way of telling me I may not fit into my wedding dress when the time comes...I told him I'd die without chocolate...he argued that Jesus gave up chocolate when he died on the cross...I argued that Jesus wasn't in grad school at the time...I think I won.
So final verdict I gave up Facebook on school nights and ice cream on all nights...I like Lent...I like the challenge, I like pretending to be a martyr...but seriously I love Lent because I think it is a good thing to be reminded of the true meaning of sacrifice...it's good to experience a little discomfort...afterall I'm not dying on the cross for sins...I'm just cutting some calories and getting behind on status updates, it's the LEAST I can do.
So anyway now we embark on this lenten journey...here's to Jesus and sacrifice...and atonement for sins.

Almost 3 years...

A few weeks ago I was reminded that I used to have a blog as I searched for it because I had to explain to a friend how "The Airport IS a step..." Thank God for the internet because I located myself after quite a lapse of time...I realized that it says my last post was Dec. 2006...it is NOW Dec. 2009...have I not had anything interesting to say for close to 3 years??? Maybe not? So much has changed since then! When I last blogged I believe I was in the process of applying to graduate school and here I am 6 months from graduation of a 3 year program...I guess it's not that I haven't had anything interesting to say it's that grad school has arrested my existence and I have had my face in the books ever since...I have learned a lot but am SOOOO ready for May to get here but this does come with some trepidation...a REAL adult, yet again...I have to find a job, can no longer fall back on student loans, I have to find a job...I guess that's the REALLY REALLY important and VERY VERY scary part. Also means I have to start paying back the aforementioned student loans..YIKES!! Isn't being an adult wonderful :( It's the worst time possible to be in the field of education. It seemed like a wonderful idea back in 2006, pre-recession...ahhh the good old days!
After watching a movie like Julie & Julia doesnt everyone want to come up with something new and creative and catchy and provide something to the world on blogs that is intriguing and addicting...perhaps it will just come to me and I will change lives including my own, one blog entry at a time...oh Julie, look what you've done to us!!
Until next time, hopefully it wont be in 3 more years.

a last attempt at greatness...

pejorative- negative in connotation
perpiscuity-clearness of expression
officious-excessive eagerness in offering service, meddlesome
pertinacious-stubborn
slovenly-untidy, careless
pinion-(v.) restrain
propinquity- nearness, kinship
pristine- characteristic of earlier times
probity- uprightness
polemic- controversy
partisan- one sided, prejudice
hapless-unlucky
docile- obedient
perfunctory- superficial, not thorough, lacking interest, care, or enthusiasm
feral- wild, untamed
pernicious- very destructive
confound- confuse, puzzle
propitiate- appease
contention- claim, thesis
deride- ridicule
ostentatious- showy, pretentious
stolid- dull
paucity- scarcity
chicanery- trickery, deception
supercede- replace
onerous- burdensome
penury- severe poverty
perfidy- treachery, disloyalty
obviate- make unnecessary, get ride of
occlude- shut, close
tacit- understood, not put into words
tenuous- thin, weak
torpor- lethary
truculent- aggressive, ferocious
vituperative- abusive, scolding
approbation- approval
appropriate-(v.) aquire, take posession
attenuate-(v.) make thin, weaken
austere- severely simple
aver- state confidently
belie- contradict
admonish- warn
adulterate- make impure
alacrity- cheerful promptness
apprise- inform
diatribe- bitter scolding
diffidence- shyness
engender- cause, produce
proscribe- banish
equanimity- composure
esoteric- hard to understand
solicitous- concerned
reprobate- person hardened in sin
quiescent- dormant
mitigate- appease, moderate
sanction- approve, ratify
disparage- belittle
ingratiate-(v.)become popular with
repudiate- disown, disavow

Think before you speak....

"Think before you speak," is an adage that has been spoken to us from a very early age. Due to recent events I am not so certain this is something that is as ingrained in all of us like I once may have thought. When my friends and I sat around yesterday recapping the unexpected drama of the previous night, each individual episode could have been avoided in its entirety if the offenders would have simply adhered to this wise direction. All of us fail to think of how someone else might feel in many situations. We say things without thought and act without thinking how the recipient of our thoughts and actions might feel. Then we have the audacity to act surprised at the consequences that may then follow. I think we all need to take a moment and realize how these sagacious adages from our childhood can carry over into our adult lives. Some are easier than others. Most of us manage to not talk with our mouths full, we certainly look both ways before we cross the street, and we certainly know better than to run with scissors. But when it comes to the hard stuff like doing unto others and we would have done to us or my current focus of thinking before we speak there is a struggle between law and execution of such.

the saga continues...

mealymouthed: indirect speech; hypocritical; evasive
prevaricate: lie
luminary: celebrity; dignitary
nefarious: very wicked
cavil: make frivolous objections
recalcitrant: obstinately stubborn
paltry: insignificant; petty
improvident: thriftless
munificent: very generous
splenetic: Affected or marked by ill humor or irritability
asperity: sharpness of temper
fetter: shackle; something that serves to restrict
predilection: preference; partiality
castigate: punishment or severe criticism
gambol: skip; leap playfully
mellifluous: sweetly flowing; melodious
vouchsafe: to grant or bestow
jettison: throw overboard
gamely: with courage or in a spirited manner
desultory: aimless; haphazard
ingenue: naive & trusting
denizen: habitant; resident
apostate: one who abandons their religion
mendicant: beggar
impecunious: without money
petulant: touchy

Welcome to my world...

chary: adj. cautious; wary.
cogent: adj. convincing.
desiccate: v. dry up; to make dry, dull, or lifeless.
dissolution: n. disintegration; looseness in morals.
extrapolation: n. projection; conjecture.
exingency: n. urgent situation.
flag: v. droop; grow feeble.
fatuous: adj. foolish, inane.
felicitous: adj. suitably expressed; well chosen.
flout: v. reject; mock.
foment: v. stir up; instigate.
gainsay: v. deny.
garrulous: adj. loquacious; wordy.
goad: v. urge on.
gouge: v. overcharge
guileless: adj. without deceit.
iconoclastic: adj. attacking cherished traditions.
inchoate: adj. recently begun; rudimentary.
indigence: n. poverty.
ingenuous: adj. naive and trusting; young; unsophisticated.
insipid: adj. lacking in flavor; dull.
insensible: adj. unconscious; unresponsive.
insularity: n. narrow-mindedness; isolation.
intransigence: n. refusal of any compromise; stubborness.
inured: adj. accustomed; hardened.
invective: n. abuse.
laconic: adj. brief and to the point.
lassitude: n. weariness.
levity: n. lack of seriousness or steadiness; frivolity.
magnanimity: n. genorosity.
malingerer: n. one who feigns illness to escape duty.
maverick: n. rebel.
mendacious: adj. lying; habitually dishonest.
mollify: v. soothe.
obliquity: n. deviation from a vertical or horizontal line, plane, position, or direction.
parsimonious: adj. stinginess; excessive frugality.
obdurate: adj. stubborn
quixotic: adj. idealistic without regard to practicality.

empowerment....

Meredith: You dont get to call me a whore. When I met you I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done. So all the boys, and all the bars, and all the obvious daddy issues, who cared because I was done. You left me, you chose Adison. I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. You don't get to call me a whore!

Oh...Grey's Anatomy! I was thinking of this quote today because some blog I read was talking about the best quotes of the season and as a woman you really kind of wanted to stand up and clap for Meredith..perhaps cheer...because its rare when we, as women, get to speak our minds in such a way to the men that have hurt us or are just being an unbelievable dick...but when you can its as equally scary as it is empowering.

No one likes to do what they're not good at....

I was just thinking that it is kinda crazy that the fear of failure often outweighs the possibility to succeed.
I may be more guilty of this than you.
I think it has to do with focus.
If we can focus on the experience and not the upshot than perhaps our successes might outweigh our failures.
And if you atleast tried than did you really fail?